A Sunshiny Day! ;D

soo, this morning was the midnight premiere of " The Transformers " i was goin to go but they weren't sure if they would have enough tickets. So my brother volunteered to take me on thursday. :) he's sooo great! And it's my first time going to a movie with just him. About a week ago rachael told me that Daniel (my brother) said that when rachael was really small they were the best of friends and always together. It made me wonder if I will always be the second favorite. I don't know what to think sometimes. I am just the youngest child. people think of me as spoiled. I can't change that. When i have a bad day and don't feel like talking to anyone they feel like they need to go out and buy me something. Than afterwards they tell me that I shouldn't make people feel bad when im sad. Cause last night Rachael told me that I made Jared feel bad that they didn't take me with them to go see " the proposal " but we were already planning to go see it together so i got mad that they went without me and didn't even tell me i had to find out for myself. Anyways, rachael said that it's my fault that Jared is offering to take to " the transformers " and she's like "have you noticed that everytime you do this Jared pays for it. " and before in my head i was thinking that I am definitely going to pay for my own ticket. Than Rachael gets mad at me for starting to cry but what im i suppose to do?? Im soo confused.

Just One Push of A Button... :)

OKay! so I wrote him... and I apologized. I didn't expect him to write me back but surprise!!!!!!!!! he did! i told im that i lied.. which i did. and he wrote "what did you lie about. and i forgive you. " ahhhhhhh! my heart stopped. :) this the most exciting thing that's ever happened to me, is that sad?... quoting "He's just not that into you. " :D hahaha wow. today has kicked off and i feel ready to fly. i checked my horoscope. lol and it said that today my confidence will get better. wow!!! it was pretty much right... weird? I never really trusted horoscopes and what they say but it seems that everything that happens in my life that day. is all on one list. like the horoscope it actually tells me how my day will go.. like a perfect description. or maybe that's just how my mind works. I think it's going to happen once i hear it. and than i just make it happen myself. pretty crazy stuff. but the weird thing is that I checked it after my confidence busted up. hmm. what ever it is. im A-okay with it. :D cause my day is going fantastically!! yay life!!!!!! :D

Lost and... found?

I put myself in a BIG pickle!!! im having trouble talking to this guy. Soooo i asked my friend for his number.... goes down VVV(arrows) hill from there!!!!!!! what's wrong with me? i can't get over this ONE guy! he's on my mind all day, everyday. i just wish i never talked to him. He even got his Really cute guy friends to stop talking to me. Only one of his friends does anyways. it's pathetic. But now im guessing he told him about what happened between us, because now the guy who talked to me acts a little awkward. I need to forget about him! but how can i when he goes spreading rumors... well not real rumors it's true. but STILL!! UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
someone... anyone please help me. I need a therapist. really bad. Im so lost

Goodbye Jenn!!!!!!

Jen leaves to move to colorado.. :( she already left at 6:50 im going to miss her!!!!!!!! she's like one of my best friends and she's leaving me. along with Kali Bailey! Why Are ALL of my friends leaving me!!? now i only have 2 close friends in Arizona. ): Anyways, so the other day i was looking for stuff under my bed but i couldn't see so i used my phone's light than after i was like OMG where's my phone??? so i started looking for it with my phone's light. hahaha woopsies! I sang my song for Grandma over the phone.... she liked it alot but she couldn't really understand the words cause our phone isn't too good. But dude i was shaking than i got over it! woo! all this excitement is just sooo welcoming and i love it!!!! oooo! i also found my favorite movies on youtube!!!! they are... :) the princess and the goblin, troll in central park, the black cauldron, and cats don't dance!!!! i love them all! :) well i got to go. peace.

Last Day of School. :(

okay, so tomorrow is the day before summer break. :( how depressing! i know it's unusal to miss school but come on! all your friends! your whole life is there! I've only gone to school during 5th grade to 10th... but now! im gonna be in 11TH ! woot woot! :) i have my math, english, and world history finals... fun? so im watching America's Funniest Home Videos and this little boy was walking with his dad than saw two girls in bikini's walking the other way and started following them! it was soo funny! UGH i need to go to bed. but tht just means that tomorrows gonna come sooner. :'( soo long fellow classmates... i won't see you. Until Next Year!!!! ,'D <- it's a chinese freakin awesome dude! :) I really hope that tomorrow will be a good day.. im kind of nervous cause it's the last time im going to see... Someone(; and i need to get the strength to talk to him and say goodbye or something. just ONE thing and i will be Happy! :) well better go. Peace out! :)

CHOIR FINAL!!!

AAH! so pretty much i had to sing one of MY songs in front of the whole choir class!
yea, scariest day eveR! but it was also one of the best. i got told by many people that it sounded AmAzing! and one girl found out that i wrote it and she was like "wow, it was yours?? it was really good i was even going to ask you what it was called cause i wanted it" Awesome! RIGHT?? golly, i hope my time in the Sun will last! this is my dream! and i don't want anything to happen to it. cause i will fight to the death. okay so i won't go that far... but you know! ,'D anyways, so today has gone pretty Fantastic! My Biology teacher missed a couple of pages on the final and it turned out that all we had to put was "A's" in.. and STILL get them right cause it was his fault they were missing... if that made any sense to you ... you are a genius! (; soo.. later... My friend gave me a fruit roll-up and almost forgot it's still in my pocket!!! :O haha. Than i got to sit by my best friend.. PHILLIP! <- awesome name right?? in french class during our final. Psh, that boy tickles like none other! Than i almost bumped into Adam... UGH! he smiled at me!! why does he have to torture me like this???????????????? D: Leave comments...! Later! :) PEACE!

Just A Day... ,'D

so... pretty much i just had a terrible day. have you ever had a friend who was soo perfect and was everything you wanted to be your whole life?? but no one notices you because her voice is what everyone wants to have and her personality is flawless. i nearly cried when she got voted most likely to become a singer and song writer. psh! she doesn't even write songs! i do! and all i got voted was most likely to become the next taylor swift. if only ours were changed.. i finally made VOSAC! a.k.a. voices of shadow advanced choir. :D but so did she.. it's not fair! how can i love me? i wrote another song today. about how everyone tells me i need to be more out there and be me. but when i tell them how i feel they just get mad at me. i can't talk to people because they don't except me! why can't they just make up their mind. life was so much easier when i was hidden in the dark. it doesn't make sense to me.